Seriously. This morning I woke up thinking about food. The weird thing is ... I'm usually not hungry. I am just thinking about food constantly. When this happens I try to drink some water or Crystal Light or eat one of my meal replacements.
Yesterday I had just finished a bowl of soup and I started thinking about an "In and Out" burger. It didn't help that one of my co-workers had an "In and Out" bag on his desk. He was funny, he put his arm around me and said "It just has batteries in it, there's no food". Uh, Missing. The. Point! I don't need the food to crave it, just the thought is enough. I eventually put another bag over the "In and Out" bag so I wouldn't think about it every time I walked by. Sigh. Okay, now I want a burger.
This is now such a mental game. My body is fine. I have lots of energy (well, enough energy anyway). I am not hungry, I am not thirsty. It's all in my mind. So far I am winning. I just have to stay strong and remember it will be over in a few months. So far, so good. I just keep telling myself one day I will be able to have a burger again. One day I will have lost all the weight and can eat real food. In the meantime I will just have to continue dreaming about it.
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